Austin

"When it's right, you'll know." I've been told that several times during my trip. I'm having a hard time believing that and trusting myself and my feelings. Feelings can be misleading and can change. So when I get to the place that I'm supposed to start a new life in how will I know? Will I have a warm tingly-face feeling? Will a beam of light open from the heavens and a choir of angels sing? What will be my sign to know that I'm doing the right thing and I'm in the right place? I'm a worrier, a very talented worrier. I worry about money and paying my bills and I worry about my dog being safe and not hating me for leaving him with my sister for so long. I worry about how everyone else in my life feels and what everyone else thinks about me. I spend so much time worrying that actually living my life is passing me by and I'm missing it.

I loved being in Austin with Corrie and Joe. I don't know if this is where I'm supposed to be though. The people here are so nice, it's very dog friendly, the weather is beautiful and it has an eclectic home feel. But what would I do here? I don't want just a job, I want a career, I want my soul to sing and I want to shine with happiness. I haven't seen that job posting anywhere though..... The scary thing is that I could take the easy way out again. I could get a job in corporate america and tell myself that this is the responsible thing to do and lose sight of myself and my needs again. So I'm fighting that very hard right now. It's an inner struggle between two parts of my brain and personality. It's exhausting at times.

I spoke with a dear friend last night and he said I might not know right away, it might take time maybe months after I've finished this road trip to truly know where I'm supposed to be and what my true calling is. My dear Corrie is one of the most patient people I know. She gives her time, love, understanding and friendship and doesn't put restrictions or requirements on any of them. The advice that she gave me is to take time for myself to figure it out and don't lose sight of the purpose in making this trip......to discover myself. Much Love Corrie!!

Next stop.....Roswell, NM.....going on an Alien hunt; I'm not afraid!